Lost touch of The Creativity

She miss writing so much that  she haven’t wrote the same , 

Lost touch of the pen .

She just don’t write the way she  once did  ,

Head full of so much  thoughts .

It’s hard to explain .

Like how did the girl that once lived to write poetry , 

Can’t write a Darn thing.

Sometimes it’s harder at night 

With the thoughts caving in .

Sometimes all she  wants to do is reach for the book and the pen . 

But she finds it at times it more easier to keep it all in .

But as times go by ,she start to realize that it gets harder for her to deal with it while she bottles it all in .

She reaches for her book and starts writing .

And that’s the moment she realizes

That’s what she was missing . 

-Nadira Ahmed 

Empty void

She was in a  world where she didn’t know who she was . 

Sometimes she would love to try different stuff .

But I’n the end of the day she would always find her way to come back to her true self .

She try many things but nothing ever sparked her soul  .

A Hijabi girl living in a non Islamic world.

Who would ever thought she would throw away the scarf and put on her tight  pair of Blue jeans and  white tank  top.

She just wanted to fit in with everyone else.

Little did she know that her hijab is what kept her different from the rest .

She was living in a life where she pretend to be happy . 

Happy to be someone she wasn’t trynna be  , 

All she ever wanted to be was free .

Free from the judgment,  Free from the hurt .

The most saddest thing was she was battling with herself . 

Her inner self wasn’t happy to throw away the hijab , Something  always pulled her back .

Every time she tried going bad.

She had such a generous beautiful  soul and  that’s something she never lacked , She had a  Strong  iman and that’s  why she never lost faith in the hijab.

-Nadira Ahmed 

Solo

 

She knew who she was.

 but deep down they all didn’t know.

She didn’t want anyone to figure out her.

She was nothing like a open book .

She rather wanted to be a puzzle .

She just wanted to be free .

Free from all the Chaos in this world .

 She just wanted to feel at peace .

And that’s what she was craving for  .

She felt more happy when she was alone .

And alone just felt right to her .

She knew that true happiness comes within 

And that’s not something we rely for on others .

- Nadira Ahmed

 Distant 

You should distant your self from the negativity.

You should distant your self from the drama .

You should distant your self

From those who come with ill intentions.

And those who bring the worst out of you and never wanting to see you win.

So you can focus more on your self . And choose to live the life you Always wanted to live .

-Nadira Ahmed

 

The racist ones 

They Hate you because your not one of them .

They will continue to Hate you 

And never want you to be better then them.

They will never give you equal rights.

 “And don’t you ever think about them ever treating you the same .

See the thing is they only tend to choose their own kind while the ones they don’t like they leave them behind .

 

These people come in all different forms there likely found in your Jobs  your local community , your school but I call these people the racist ones .

-Nadira Ahmed 

11/24

Naked

You loved me for who I am.

You  didn’t love  me for  my looks and appearance Or the cosmetics.

 You believed in me .

And made me overcome my flows .

And loved me deeply for who I was.

You encouraged me to not feel self conscious in my body .

Seen the real me And made  me feel that I can be myself around you .

It was like  I had no reason to feel shy.

Because with you You made me feel alive .

And different .

Something I’ve always been missing.

-Nadira Ahmed 

Disappointment

11/24

Disappointment 

I loved people I’ll never look at the same  again.”

If they probably passed away right now.

I probably wouldn’t even reach out to any of them .

Got couple family members  that I haven’t 

spoken to In Years.

People will disappoint you in every way they can possibly can  .

They ask me why do I tend to  hold on to these grudges so much? 

I tell them I think it’s the fact that I just don’t have that type of Patience for No one.

-Nadira Ahmed